Why is it?

That the surest motivation for me to do something is usually anger? I'm finding myself less and less compelled by love lately, and it's been a cause of frustration. Then, I'm getting angry because I'm not loving, and it therefore motivates me to "love." Is this normal? Is this how it has to happen? I'm just thinking as I type here. Where's Amanda Fashbaugh to help me make sense of things?